It was just a normal day, doing normal things when suddenly I was facing a monster.

I had a lot of fun with “THE MEG” movie title when it was released this past summer. I even named my hockey team pool “Team Megalodon”. Here I am a few months later, realizing there are many elements in this clip that tell the story of how I felt the moment of my diagnosis and the first couple of weeks after. How one minute I was having a follow-up ultrasound and an hour later I had met with an Oncology Surgeon (WTF!@! I couldn’t even process it). The impossible, the surreal, the shock, the fear, how monstrous it felt. There was the flurry of appointments, tests, and procedures – the building pressure that was close to exploding. In the midst of this, there was Christmas, New Years and Holiday Parties where all seemed normal – there was a temporary reprieve. Everything looked normal on the surface, but it wasn’t normal – I had stepped into a new reality and was about to begin the battle of my life.

“Why don’t you put a tracker on it?” I happen to have 3 “trackers” in my body now (they are called clips and are related to chemo).